wat has happened to me and the pple ard me? especially those i love very dearly.. whr haf they gone to or am i the one shutting myself from them? sometimes times like this, i really dun quite want to be at home early.. but when i tink of my mom, i just couldnt bring myself to do that.. argh!! i just want to go far far away.. in a very quiet place or island and have a peace of mind.. just to forget whatever worries i have.. :(

Where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with u
all nite, had i known how to save a life..

what has happened? im lost... whr did he go? just for a girl he totally forgot the ones at home... the ones whom he used to be close.. whr are u? i dun see u nowadays... i tot u could be someone whom i could depend on... i certainly dunno what went wrong.. and u have alwaz been home quite late this days.. i barely talked to u neither do i get to see u often.. i miss u so much.. so very much.. whr was the times whr we laughed together, crticise others together.. go out together.. u used to tell me that u looked up to me.. i felt ashamed of wat i did then.. but den when i looked at it now, im more ashamed of what ure doing... i really dunno wat to say.. i wana stay strong for everyone but im just so afraid that i cant hold it any longer.. im not confident..

i pray that u be back with us afain like before.. i dun want u to forget the relationship u have with us, just for a S**** GIRL... furthermore she's a B****... i really am so afraid that she will take ctrl of u and us later on... i pray that u will not be blinded by that... PLS DUN FORGET WHO ARE UR FAMILY MEMBERS....

my heart is crying so badly... im really holding on to the tears in my eyes.. i cant just sit ard and do nothing.. argh!!

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